We are on a small raft.
We may never see the ones we love again.
Every poem is a message in a bottle.
Revision is urgency with tweezers.
How to pull out the bit not meant
to be there. […]
I know “love “when simplified to its lowest
common denominator means sorrow
tomorrow. I know it isn’t too late to change.
— From “Accidental Practitioners” by Heather Sellers
I mentioned in an email to a friend the other day that immediately following this post I had a lengthy conversation with that same Catholic friend in the post along with one other person. We talked about a lot of topics, from aliens to Epstein to (“faked”) space exploration to JFK and the CIA.
And… Sometimes all you can say or feel after a conversation like this is… Woof. It was an onslaught of one conspiracy after another.
(I’m trying to use that word as neutrally as possible. I’m not slapping the label “conspiracy theorist” on anyone. Each of these conversations have something in common: There was a secret, or some information that was hidden from us, and now we’re learning the “truth.” “Conspiracies” is the right word for that. It also helps understand the goosebumps and pride that go with being part of the Great Unveiling. You’re like a Godly Plato; the Democrats and the Mainstream Media want you to stay in the cave.)
But what I mentioned stood out from the whole thing was the general pleasantness of the chat. It was not like our first chat. For one thing, the third conversation partner added mediation as well as balance considering a) she’s much closer to my Catholic friend and b) she has more overlap with my (self-proclaimed) saner approach to Politics. And I suspect it helps that we had already done the more mercurial task of ice-breaking. But for whatever reason, there was no indication that we could not laugh at the bar or barbecue together afterwards.
I wish I could say that that was the end-moral here. And maybe it should be, maybe it is. But this morning I read Philip Graubart’s Comment essay “Denial and the Evasion of Empathy.”
One of the things Graubart talks about in the piece is a John Mearsheimer video a friend sent him in which Mearsheimer claims that on Oct. 7th Hamas probably did not kill many civilians — it was the Israeli military that was responsible and “Israeli propaganda” is the only reason we think otherwise.
(A personal recommendation: If you don’t already know Mearsheimer, you’re probably normal and healthy-minded and should skip-to-my-Lou right past that rabbit hole.)
When Graubart was reading the book 10/7: 100 Human Stories, he saw the name of someone he knew, someone who had been murdered with her family while “huddling together in bed.”
What would Mearsheimer say about this family? Or, more importantly for most of us, what would someone who finds Mearsheimer so convincing or “interesting” say about this family?
Was it the Israeli army that murdered this family? Did an IDF helicopter pilot execute them while they lovingly reached for each other? Did a psychotic serial killer invade the kibbutz that morning? Or is it all a hoax? Did I make up the story along with Lee Yaron and our cabal of tricksters? What insane questions. Yet millions of people visit websites suggesting something of this sort.
When I got to this point in the essay, the thought of being proud of some ability to peaceably argue, laugh, and barbecue suddenly felt wrong — trivial at best but… definitely worse than just trivial.
My friends and I did not talk about this specific topic, but, again, it has been one long and remarkably consistent string of conspiracies. And I can’t forget that these conversations started with nothing short of full-throated support for the bombing of civilian boats in the Caribbean.
The thing is, I have friends and family members who traffic in the exact same things as my Catholic friend. And like Graubart, I too have had videos of John Mearsheimer sent to me. The themes of denials and excuses and evasions — it’s so exhausting and very often horrifying. And here’s a very sad but important note to get off my chest: For 10+ years now, I have not a single memory of the truth bearing out in these conversations. Not one. Every conversation, no matter how friendly, is had across a barbed wire fence. Can a veneer of pleasantness or even laughter cover that?
You might be thinking here, Well, why bother having these conversations at all? What’s the point? I actually did get a chance to talk to that third member of the conversation the next day. We were talking about how having these little debates in places like where we were having them — at work — actually can land someone like myself in trouble. And we also remarked about the seeming futility of conversations like this. And she did ask, “Well, why have them?” All I can say is that I just fundamentally believe in it. It’s not that people can never change their mind; I think people often do. But that change, if it occurs, occurs off the set, so to speak. You may never know what effect your conversation will have. But you’re acting in faith that a toleration in practice is better than a toleration in theory. And you’re acting in faith that words between language animals do matter.*
Emphasis on faith.
Graubart does suggest that some of what’s going on here — in saying Israel’s military killed their own people and then blamed it on Hamas — is just “classic antisemitism.”
“But there’s a parallel human compulsion at play,” he says, “equally common and equally pernicious: an evasion of empathy. Humans don’t want to see the pain of their enemies. To truly witness the trauma of another is to engage with their narrative— and that’s something we’d often rather avoid.”
I suspect that we can reach for something even broader — more basic and, though no less pernicious, perhaps less exculpatory for us all. “Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity,” Simone Weil famously said. (There are possible ironies in quoting her here, but nonetheless …) She also said that “something in our soul has a far more violent repugnance for true attention than the flesh has for bodily fatigue.”
When I think of it on these terms, it’s both worse and better. Worse because I don’t know anyone on the right or left side of the political aisle whose soul-attention is in good cardiovascular shape. And better because it means more or less the same task of attention is needed in every direction.
I have never known what I’m doing. I don’t recall the last time I felt sure that what I was doing was the right thing. And that uncertain thought of uncertainty is disturbing to me — and pitiable. But I’m so often surrounded, surrounded, by certainty (mostly the Dunning-Kruger kind) and I can’t say I envy those who have it.**
If you can’t already tell, I have no idea where I’m going with this.
I am aided by a poem my friend John Brady shared:
PAUDEEN
Indignant at the fumbling wits, the obscure spite
Of our old paudeen in his shop, I stumbled blind
Among the stones and thorn-trees, under morning light;
Until a curlew cried and in the luminous wind
A curlew answered; and suddenly thereupon I thought
That on the lonely height where all are in God’s eye,
There cannot be, confusion of our sound forgot,
A single soul that lacks a sweet crystalline cry.
— W. B. Yeats***
Graubart closes with a reflection on the universal “miracle of creation” seen in the hostage reunion scenes of the Israel-Hamas war. “What is more elementally human,” he asks, “than the mad, primal love between a parent and child or husband and wife?
While on one network Israeli hostages fell into the arms of their families, on another network Palestinian prisoners were reunited with their families. Mothers screamed for their children, children ran to their parents, and fathers wept. The messy, joyful human mix played itself out only a few miles from where Israeli mothers hugged their sons. I’m not, of course, equating terrorists and hostages; that’s not the point of this reflection. But if I don’t see the sacred humanity in a mother-child reunion on the other side, I’ve fallen into a dehumanizing denial trap, a trap that lies in wait for us all.
And that reminded me of another thing Weil said: “The mystery of Creation has its equivalent in us. It is the mystery of charity in our actions.”
But I don’t mind admitting how uncertain I am. I’ll argue and laugh and barbecue, and I’ll wonder — I’m telling you now, I really wonder — if there is in any true peace in it.
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* “The information-coding view tends to see language as providing immensely useful instruments for defining and communicating knowledge about the world. But language creates a context for human life and action, including speech, which deserves attention in its own right. We relate to this context not only, or even primarily, as to an instrument which we can pick up or lay down. Rather it is the medium we are in; a feature of what we are. It opens for us other dimensions of existence, which we cannot ignore if we want to understand the nature of language and of our existence in language.” — Charles Taylor, The Language Animal
** “Le doute n’est pas une état bien agréable, mais l’assurance est un état ridicule.” — Voltaire, letter to Frederick William, Duke of Prussia, November 28th, 1770
*** I started to do more with this post, but it’s long enough already. I think I’ve said what I want to say. I also found this analysis of Yeats poem which, if you have a few extra minutes, is absolutely worth your time. It says whatever else I might have said better than I would’ve said it. (Though I’m afraid to ask if it is written by a human or stolen from humans by a computer.)