Creatures, when my friend Leah Libresco Sargeant talks about her conversion to Catholicism, she sometimes notes that focusing on the conversion story is a little bizarre. Like imagine (this is the analogy she’s used) that the Pevensie children come back from Narnia, and they start telling people about it—and everyone’s reaction is, “Oh sure, talking lion, mysterious lands, terrible betrayals and redemptions, I get it. Tell us more about the wardrobe!”
There’s been a rebound in adult conversions to Catholicism. This just seems to be true by now, as far as I can tell. Numbers are still not where they were a quarter-century ago, but they are up all over the USA and in many other countries. …
But the question online-people seem to want to talk about, instead, is, “Are these people converting for the right reasons?” There’s a lot of Discourse about whether people are coming to the Catholic Church because it’s right-wing (? not the most obvious option here but okay), or because they want to be manly men (hmm), or because of Catholic “influencers” etc. To put the fear or criticism most charitably, it’s a fear that people are entering the Church for a political persona, not an encounter with Jesus Christ.
And yet I guess all of this seems to me like an obsession with the wardrobe. Nobody stays in the Faith for the same reasons they converted. The Church is bigger on the inside. Having entered, you may discover how much there really is, beyond the little alcove where you happened to find a door.
As we continue to live and seek God, we generally discover that there is something in the Faith that we weren’t taught at first and desperately need. (Sometimes we were taught it, but we didn’t pay attention because we didn’t realized we would desperately need it! To slightly modify the saying of the great sage bugl0rd, on Twitter,
‘why didn’t we learn this in CCD’
bitch we did but you were drawing a picture of an eye.
Anyways.)
So the real thing here is that when people enter the Church through small, weird, insufficient, or warped doors, they need wise guides to show them the path deeper in, into the heart of the Church. Those wise guides themselves rarely grasp the entire mystery (how could we?). … All of us are called to move beyond where we started.
I suppose one could argue that a “political persona” is not, in fact, a door at all, even if you happen to find yourself standing inside a Catholic church. But the point is that the “door” is not in anyone’s control, is not in anyone’s power to define. And it is not, especially from our time- and ground-bound point of view, a permanent thing at all, let alone a status. It’s an invited step you take, one that serves, in our time- and ground-bound stories, as a first of many.
(I can tell you, though, that questions like “Are these people converting for the right reasons?” is absolutely not limited or special to “online-people.”)
I still have not done the difficult, exhausting, laborious work of picking up the pheun to call the parish office and ask about RCIA or OCIA or whatever they’re calling it now. I think I will soon, but who knows.
I can happily and confidently say I am in none of the above categories— I am not right-wing (nor left-wing) nor concerned about “manliness” nor do I have any interest or history with (mouthwash in hand)… “influencers.”
When I made the move in my early twenties from “my parents’ faith” to my own, I sat in non-denominational membership classes and many other groups with folks who described themselves as “recovering Catholics.”
Well, I guess I’m just a recovering evangelical, and I still have no idea what recovery looks like.